There are times when I feel completely overwhelmed with my life. I take a deep breath and tell myself that there is a solution to everything and that things will work out okay. And they do. Usually.
For instance, I am enrolled in four classes: tax accounting, principles of management, interpersonal skills, and world religion. I set up my schedule so that two of the classes meet once a week in the evenings. Religion is an internet class and the tax accounting class meets twice a week from 8 - 9:15AM. I have a part time job for a few hours, two afternoons a week. I give riding lessons once a week. I volunteer at my church and am currently helping the bookkeeper review the books. I have four horses to take care of, besides my dogs and cats. I have grown children at home.
In my spare time, I am seeking full time employment. I am worried that I won't be able to do it all. Over the holiday weekend, for instance, I had tons of homework assigned. How will I be able to commit 40- 50 hours to a job? When you include commuting time and daily lunch hours, it actually comes out to over 50 hours!
Yesterday, I applied for a full time position. It would be great! It offers super benefits: medical insurance, 401K, and tuition assistance, all effective immediately, 4 weeks vacation, and very good pay. It's not too far away either, very close to the University and my part time job. I felt comfortable in the interview and am hopeful that I get accepted because this would be a doable solution- they are flexible around working hours too. But what if I don't get the job?? I am maxing out! I can't afford to live financially and I don't know how I will time manage if I accept a job farther away for less money. I was offered a job last week for less money than I was making ten years ago and I have an associate's degree now! It was also around 35 miles from home whereas this position is about 25 miles away. Not a lot of difference, but it does add up.
I hate to be in this position. I really have no control over the matter at this point. I am believing that I will get this job because I want it so badly. All I know is that whatever happens is meant to be. Anyone who reads this, send a little prayer my way, please!
One inch thoughts - song: Sons of the silent age artist: David Bowie, album: Heroes