Thursday, September 10, 2009

One inch thoughts

There are times when I feel completely overwhelmed with my life. I take a deep breath and tell myself that there is a solution to everything and that things will work out okay. And they do. Usually.
For instance, I am enrolled in four classes: tax accounting, principles of management, interpersonal skills, and world religion. I set up my schedule so that two of the classes meet once a week in the evenings. Religion is an internet class and the tax accounting class meets twice a week from 8 - 9:15AM. I have a part time job for a few hours, two afternoons a week. I give riding lessons once a week. I volunteer at my church and am currently helping the bookkeeper review the books. I have four horses to take care of, besides my dogs and cats. I have grown children at home.

In my spare time, I am seeking full time employment. I am worried that I won't be able to do it all. Over the holiday weekend, for instance, I had tons of homework assigned. How will I be able to commit 40- 50 hours to a job? When you include commuting time and daily lunch hours, it actually comes out to over 50 hours!

Yesterday, I applied for a full time position. It would be great! It offers super benefits: medical insurance, 401K, and tuition assistance, all effective immediately, 4 weeks vacation, and very good pay. It's not too far away either, very close to the University and my part time job. I felt comfortable in the interview and am hopeful that I get accepted because this would be a doable solution- they are flexible around working hours too. But what if I don't get the job?? I am maxing out! I can't afford to live financially and I don't know how I will time manage if I accept a job farther away for less money. I was offered a job last week for less money than I was making ten years ago and I have an associate's degree now! It was also around 35 miles from home whereas this position is about 25 miles away. Not a lot of difference, but it does add up.

I hate to be in this position. I really have no control over the matter at this point. I am believing that I will get this job because I want it so badly. All I know is that whatever happens is meant to be. Anyone who reads this, send a little prayer my way, please!

One inch thoughts - song: Sons of the silent age artist: David Bowie, album: Heroes


Nuzzling Muzzles said...

Sending prayers... That's a really good sign that there are jobs to apply for and you received an offer, even if it was less than ideal. Go with your gut. I always know a job isn't meant to be if I get sick on the first day. That has happened twice, and both jobs turned out to be a nightmare.

fernvalley01 said...

Absolutley, prayers for you are said ! good luck , I hope it resolves quickly for you

Dan and Betty Cooksey said...

Prayer on the way. Let us know how it turns out.


Gail said...

Give it to God, you have enough to handle!

cdncowgirl said...

Prayers sent :)

Paint Girl said...

I hope you get the job!! It sounds fantastic! You will definitely be in my prayers!!
The job thing is very difficult, as I am finding out, still unemployed 3 months later. There isn't much out there.

BrownEyed Cowgirls said...

Keeping my fingers crossed for you and good vibes being sent your way.

Tammy said...

That job sounds perfect! Prayers offered!

I understand the overwhelming feeling (is there an "h" in that word? I never can remember...) As women (mothers), we are always trying to keep it together for everyone. Be sure and take time for yourself, too. Sounds like your walk (most recent blog) was what you needed!

Breathe said...

It's a difficult time, but we're all pulling for you! Hang in there!